Stress- a personal rant.

Stress.

I suffer greatly with minor mental health problems. Often encountering bouts of depression, stress and as a sufferer of Aspergers I have been know to frequent self-harm and panic attacks.

I have recently begun my A-Levels, taking English Literature, History, RE and Drama. I love writing so the essays weren't initially a big deal, recently though I’ve been feeling down all the time.

Embarrassingly enough, I think I may have to take the step to take some time off of school, to calm my mind, myself and actually get things sorted without panicking half way through.

Letting your friends and family know you're suffering is not always easy, I know some of my friends would ridicule me for being weak. I don't like being judged.

I told my Mum (who whilst is the most annoying damsel in existence is also the best mother i could ever ask for) that I was struggling.

I didn't tell her to the full extent. I don't wish to be dramatic, but it will certainly come across that way. I felt suicidal sometimes. I felt despair. I’ve realised that every actual sane person will experience these traumatic experiences once or twice in their live.

I know it is the right thing to do to take some time off. I will miss some school and will probably be hated by all my teachers, but who really gives a shit. If its good for me and my health and you don't like it, then bitch im going to be selfish and take some time off.

I encourage any other person to do the same if they can relate to my post. Unions and schools WILL support you.

and remember...

NYX- Soft Matte Lip Cream in Copenhagen.

Matte lips are in. From the 90's nudes of Kylie Jenner, to the flash back red of 50's pin up girls... they are making a comeback and doing it with style.

   The NYX Soft Matte Lip Creams have been around for quite a while now, but I have only recently got round to trying them. Two extremities dominate the blogosphere. That they are as drying as the Sahara dessert, or as immaculate as the Sistine Chapel. I thought I should bring my opinions to the table. 

   NYX is not readily available in the UK so my Lip Cream was ordered off of Amazon, for the delectable price of £7 (about average for a slightly more expensive high street lippie.) The delivery was quick and I am assured I have received the genuine article. I selected the colour 'Copenhagen' as darker lips are all the rage and I thought it looked pretty swishy.

The Packaging:

• Standard lip gloss tube with doe foot applicator. 
• The packaging is plastic but does not feel cheap and reminds me of MAC lip glass tubes. 
• The colour looks deeper in the tube than on the lips 
• Name printed clearly on a sticker on the underside of the tube (all ways a plus)
• I love how the black cap is matte and the tube is see through so you get a real idea of the finished look 

The formulation and application: 

• The formulation is very smooth and pigmented 
• Applies as if a lip gloss 
• Opaque- though I find looks better with 2 coats. 
• Cruelty free
• The doe foot applicator ensures a curved cupids bow- difficult to get precise, neat lines but certainly manageable. 
• Drys to an almost powder matte finish 
• I did not find it overly drying 
• TIP: It is honestly so much easier to apply with a lip liner underneath
• In my opinion two thin layers is much better than one thick layer. So my application consists of lip liner all over lip as a base, one thin layer of the NYX Matte Lip Cream, allowing that to dry, before going over with another thin layer. LOOKS FABULOUS. Pictures seriously do not give this colour justice. 

Excuse the blurry pictures (I'm new at this).

Longevity:

• This is the winning point of the NYX Matte Lip Cream... it lasts impeccably. Honestly I feel this could with stand Atlantic storms. 
• I do apply a lip liner underneath to prevent bleeding, and increase ease of application and longevity, but it is very good without. The lip liner I use doesn't match the colour of the Lip Cream- but the colour is so opaque is does not matter. The lip liner is a cheapy from Natural collection at Boots and cost either one or two pounds. 
• Fading begins from the inside of the lips, but the picture below was taken after I had inserted food and drink into my body.
• Transfer proof. 
• Easy to refresh with a quick top up- does not look cakey.

This picture is after approx. 4 hours of wear, a meal and drinks.

All pictorials were taken in natural light, so apologies if the light varies in each. 

Overall: 

• I truly think this is one of the best matte lipsticks out there, comparable to companies charging much more than NYX (such as the Lime Crime Velvetine), I love the colour and the formulation, and the fact that it isn't too drying. Ya'll should really check it out!

An insight into the blog of a lamppost hugger...

Hallo and welcome to my blog!
I am fully aware that perhaps nobody is reading this, but I thought I ought to write a little intro. I don't have a particularly exciting life and I am yet to realise the direction I want to take this blog, but I thought that it would be a nice record of my life to look back on (en el futuro). I am unfortunately NOT John Watson, so this won't follow a particular theme or person (casual Sherlock reference ;)). I am considering including my opinions on books, TV, film, maybe even incorporate a little bit of beauty reviewing, but mostly my 'whirlwind' of a life- that mainly includes Doctor Who and copious amounts of books.
Anywho, I hope you enjoy, and lets hope this will be the first post of many.
Huzzah.